30 Sep 2003 @ 22:10, by Craig Lang
Today was one of those days that I don't want to repeat too often. It is days like this when business associates get on your case about something that - in retrospect - is trivial. It is a day when the most difficult clients appear out of nowhere - and when software on the PC on my desk doesn't work - screwing up in the strangest of ways. Politics seems to be at its worst on days like today. And by late evening, I wondered what karma I was somehow paying off today... :-)
On days like today, I am reminded once again of "The Power of Now", the power of expectations, and the importance of mindfulness. And finally, at the end of the day, as I fitfully attempted my evening meditation, I asked myself, just why was today bad? The answer can only be that it's because I defined it to be that way. And in the end, it was through my "badness filter" that I saw it as that.
Now, having a business associate grouse at you for over an hour is never pleasant. But at that point, it can help alot to engage the mindful observer - to witness the person talking to the physical me, and myself listenning, (and wishing that "Myself" was somewhere else at that moment). And now, as I sit here writing this diary entry, I need to ask - did it really make any difference? Is the real me, the soul-self, any different because of this annoying character? No.
Today was one of those days where one needs to remind one's self that we are really spiritual beings having a human experience. And hopefully tomorrow's human experience will be a little bit kinder, and alot more fun... :-)
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