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These are lyrics to a song by Don Eaton that I have just read in the latest book by Neale Donald Walsch, Tomorrow's God. Their message resonates totally with my Inner Being.

HOPE OF HUMANITY (written and copyrighted by Don Eaton 2003)

I see so many people lost in despair,
They have no hope, and they can't find their way,
But I still believe that there's a fire in some hearts,
And that a few courageous souls will dare to say:

I am the hope of humanity.
I am the bringer of the Light.
My love will help to heal the world's insanity.
I am a candle in the night.

Now some may call it arrogance or say it's vanity
To think we're part of what dreams may come true.
But do you imagine I could feel this Light inside myself
If I hadn't seen it shining first in you?

You are the hope of humanity.
You are the bringer of the Light.
Your love wil help to heal the world's insanity.
You are a candle in the night.

Now I've been blessed to travel
With some strong and humble hearts,
A family of those who've heard the call.
And I've bathed in their heartlight and I've come to understand
There's just one reason we are here at all.

We are the hope of humanity.
We are the bringers of the Light.
Our love will help t heal the world's insanity.
We are candles in the night.

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There is a CD available of Don Eaton singing this. Contact Don by email at eatonsong@aol.com.


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I wanted to share this wonderful little parable with you, written by Neale Donald Walsch in his Conversation With God book 1. It conveys so beautifully and simply why we exist and why the world is as it is.

THE LITTLE SOUL AND THE SUN by Neale Donald Walsch

There was once a soul who knew itself to be the light. This was a new soul, and so, anxious for experience. "I am the light," it said. "I am the light." Yet all the knowing of it and all the saying of it could not substitute for the experiencing of it. And in the realm from which this soul emerged, there was nothing BUT the light. EVERY soul was grand, every soul was magnificent, and every soul shone with the brilliance of My awesome light. And so the little soul in question was as a candle in the sun. In the midst of the grandest light - of which it was a part - it could not see itself, nor experience itself as Who and What it Really Is.

Now it came to pass that this soul yearned and yearned and yearned to know itself. And so great was its yearning that I one day said, "Do you know, Little One, what you must do to satisfy this yearning of yours?"

"Oh, what, God?" What? I'll do ANYTHING!" The little soul said.

"You must separate yourself from the rest of us," I answered, "and then you must call upon yourself the darkness."

"What is the darkness, o Holy One?" the little soul asked.

"That which you are not," I replied, and the soul understood.

And so this the soul did, removing itself from the All, yea, going even unto another realm. And in this realm the soul had the power to call into its experience all sorts of darkness. And this it did.

Yet in th midst of all the darkness did it cry out, "Father, Father, why hast Thou forsaken me?" Even as have you in your blackest times. Yet I have never forsaken you, but stand by you always, ready to remind you of Who You Really Are; ready, always ready, to call you home.

Therefore, be a light unto the darkness and curse it not.

And forget not Who You Are in the moment of your encirclement by that which you are not. But do you praise to the creation, even as you seek to change it.

And know that what you do in the time of your greatest trial can be your greatest triumph. For the experience you create is a statement of Who You Are - and Who You Want to BE.

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Neale originally wrote this as a children's story. What a wonderful little parable to be taught in homes and schools - to teach our children the truth of Who They Are: beautiful and magnificent souls, loved unconditionally by God!!!

What a future to behold if every child grew up to really believe this.....................

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Dreams do come true if you wish hard enough. Prayers are always answered with love. *************************************************

I was 33 years old when I found myself having to stand on my own two feet for the first time in my life. I also had to take care of two young children, Christopher who was 4 years old and Suzanne who was 3.

My relationship with their dad had broken down irretrievably and, as we were not married, I was the one who had to move out and find somewhere else to live with the children. The only option available to me was to rent privately and there were hardly any suitable properties to rent locally. I wanted to stay local so Christopher could stay at his playschool; I wanted to keep things as normal as possible in their young lives. We were lucky enough to find a 3 bedroom house next door to the actual playschool!

I left that relationship with nothing but my children and my clothes. I had no furniture and no money. Luckily, the house was fully furnished, even though the furniture had seen better days. I received housing benefit so had no rent to pay and a weekly amount to live on from the government.

It was a hard slog, both emotionally and financially. I had never had to worry about paying bills at all in my life before so all this responsibility came as a big shock to my system. I had little to live on - but it was enough to exist.
I made sure my children were well-fed and clothed sufficiently and I gave them the best christmases and birthdays that I could. It wouldn't have been such a struggle if I hadn't used quite a lot of our meagre income on supplying my addiction to cigarettes and plying myself with alcohol on many occasions with the mistaken idea of blocking all the responsibility out of my reality.

It all proved too much for me to cope with. I found it extremely difficult and there were times when I felt that we would all be better off if the children went into care. I loved them dearly and felt that I just wasn't a good enough mother. Because of the stress of trying to keep our heads above water financially I was not at my motherly best. I had no patience with the dear souls and was continually shouting and telling them off. Yet, throughout it all they both knew how much I loved them. I always demonstrated my love for them, even in stressful moments.

I desparately wanted a man in my life. I yearned for love and security. As a result I had many boyfriends in and out our lives for a few years. Then I met Frank. It was a whirlwind romance but he offered me love, security and a way out of the emotional and financial mess I was in. I fell pregnant after 5 months together and I gave birth to Nathan the following year. Frank seemed to be delighted with his son and still wanted us to get married. However, when Nathan was 3 months old Frank disappeared and we haven't seen or heard from him since.

So I was left on my own with 3 children to raise. I still struggled financially and our house was cold and draughty. I prayed and prayed that another house or flat would become available. I tried to be thankful for the blessings that I had - I was aware that there were people far worse off than us and I just kept on hoping that something better would come along for us. At last we were offered another house. It proved to be more run down that the one we were in but it had more room and a garden so I took it. However, it was unfurnished so we moved in with only one bed and nothing else. My friend and my family rallied round and provided me with some furniture and a refridgerator and cooker. We managed though, and we survived it all. Money was still a problem and there were many times that I was threatened with having my electric, gas or water turned off because I couldn't pay the bill on one or all of them. I lost count of how many times the telephone was cut off. But I always made sure that there was enough to eat for my kids.

I still searched for a partner. All I had ever wanted was someone to love and who would love me unconditionally in return. I was still smoking and drinking, and I also had an issue with my body image. I was never obese but I always felt grotewque and unloveable if I was to put on a few pounds in weight. I basically hated myself. I felt I was a useless mother, I was ugly and unloveable and I beat myself up about the fact that I smoked and drunk alcohol. I suffered dreadful depressions and was on and off anti-depressants for years. Single motherhood really took its toll. I used to go past other family houses and wish I could have a decent place to live where I would not feel embarrassed to take people in.
I never gave up hope.

Relationships just didn't work out and I decided to give up and just concentrate my time with the children. A few months later I met Trevor. This was the one I had searched so hard and long for! This was the ideal relationship that I had prayed for for so long!! The only thing was that he lived and hour's drive away and had two teenage sons. I stayed with him at weekends and never wanted to go back home. I felt that my true home was with him.

Where I was living my next door neighbour took a big dislike to us when I moved there. She believed that a single-parent family living next door to her was going to be nothing but trouble and judged the situation before she even got to know us. Because of her dislike of us, she told lies about us to the landlord and we were threatended with eviction. We were now facing being homeless and it was really too much for me to take!! This was the last straw. I had tried to count my blessings and put up with the conditions that we had to live in for the last 8 or 9 years - we had had no decent home, no decent furniture, no decent clothing - but I consoled myself that at least we had a roof over our heads, clothes on our back and food in our bellies. But this I could not come to terms with. I finally had a mental breakdown. I hated being a single mum - I was tired of the eternal struggle. And now I had found the love I had been praying for but we could not be together. There was not enough room in Trevor's house for all of us as well as his own sons.

Then I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Within a week of diagnosis the two elder children were going to live with their dad and Nathan and me went to live with Trevor. I could not have coped on my own with the children and the devastating effect of the treatment I had to undergo. Trevor wanted me with him so he and his parents and sister could take care of me.

It was awful all of us being split up the way we were. It took a long time for us all to settle down in our new ways of life. I went through my breast cancer ordeal surrounded by unconditional love from Trevor and his family. Christopher and Suzanne settled into life with their dad, and was quite happy coming to stay with us on the odd weekend.

I have come through the nightmare and out the other side free of the need for nicotine or alcohol. I no longer suffer from stress, I have no worries, I live in a comfortable decent house and so do the children.

And most of all, Trevor and me have the most loving, caring, strong and close relationship - the one I have dreamt about all my life.

I have been led from darkness to light.
From falsehood to truth
From war to peace.

My soul rejoices because the Lord heard my cry and led me to still waters and green pastures, just as was promised.

Never ever give up hope - your heart's desire is within reach.

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"God moves in mysterious ways, his wonders to perform" - many wonders have been performed in my life and this is just one of them.

I did not have a very happy upbringing. My parents did not demonstrate a loving relationship with eachother at all. Our house was more often than not the scene of conflict and arguments.

I loved both my parents. It was my mum that I was closer to, though, and all I understood when they had these conflicts was how my dad seemed to be hurting my mum and making her cry. He became the villain of the peace in my mind and by the time I was coming up to my teens I felt I had no real relationship with him. When he wasn't talking to my mum he didn't take any notice of me either; it was akin to living with a stranger.

When I married at the age of 17, my mum took the opportunity to leave dad after 30 years of marriage to at last find a peaceful life. My three elder sisters and myself were all very pleased about this as we all believed she should have made the decision a long time before. She moved in with her sister and filed for divorce.

Because of the estranged relationship my sisters and I had had with dad, we none of us ever went to visit him or see how he was. We attacked him in our thoughts and our words and just basically forgot he existed.

Two years later we heard that he had married again and had moved away from the family home.

I was divorced by then and living in a flat with my mum, who was at last happy and wasn't interested in remarrying. In 1983, at the age of 24, I moved in with a new partner and a year after we moved to our new house I began to have a recurring dream. In my dream I had met up with my dad and we were hugging, kissing, laughing and crying together. It was very vivid but the first time I had it I dismissed it. But I had it again the next night, and the next and the next - every night for 2 weeks I had that same dream - with the same vividness. I knew I had to find my dad!!! I knew I was being given a message!!!

I found out where he was living and wrote to him, with apprehension as I didn't know what to expect in return. Then I received a lovely letter from him that had me in floods of tears. He was obviously so very pleased that I had wrote to him!! We made arrangements to meet at his house a few days later. It was a very emotional meeting. I was introduced to his new wife, who was such a lovely person!!

Over the course of a few months we had built up a relationship with eachother. By then I could look back on my childhood and all that went on between my mum and dad, and I could see that it was six of one and half a dozen of the other and my mum had hurt my dad just as much as my dad had hurt my mum. I became filled with unconditional love for both of them. I got to know my dad for the first time and realised just what a lovely person he was. He would do anything for me, and so would his lovely wife, Doris.

My elder sisters were not really impressed and couldn't understand why I would want to have anything to do with our dad. But in time, the youngest sister, Pat decided that she would like to meet dad and so it was arranged. She also found a good relationship with him. Then my next sister, Jean said she would like to meet him, and so it was arranged and she developed a relationship with him. However, Jackie, my eldest sister, was quite disgusted with us all, saying how we were being disloyal to mum and that she would NEVER want anything to do with dad.

However, when my niece was married we were all invited to the wedding and at the reception Jackie and my dad began to talk to eachother and, well, to come up to the present day, she has the best relationship with him than any of us!!!

Our mum went into transition 17 years ago. She did not know that we all had a relationship with dad.

Doris went into transition 3 years ago.

So many lives have been enriched through these dreams that I had. My sisters and I have developed a loving, unconditional relationship with my dad and had the honour of having a most beautiful, gentle soul as a step-mother. Doris could not have any children of her own but ended up with 4 daughters, 10 grandchildren and 7 great-grandchildren, who she absolutely delighted in, and our children have known the wisdom of grandparents.

There is no mystery to this at all. It is crystal clear to me that I was given a message, through my dreams, that has brought love, light and peace to so many and my soul is filled with joy and gratitude.

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One book that is very close to my heart is Son of Man by Andrew Harvey. The following is an excerpt from the beginning of the book, called "A Vision" and closely resembles how I feel within mySelf.

"A Vision" - an excerpt from Son of Man by Andrew Harvey

I was in despair at the murder of nature, at the horrible degradation of all things sacred, and at the coming suffering of millions of human beings and animals. All at once I heard all around me a voice, thrilling and loud as a trumpet, saying, between flashes of lightening and claps of soft thunder:
I am Alpha and Omega. I am the Christ, the first and the last. I am the one who lives within you and who wants to live you completely. I am the living one you are, the Sacred Androgyne longing to be born in you, the complete divine human, whose heart births and holds the whole cosmos in its fire. I am you, as you can and must become. I am your beginning and your end. I am your original and final face.

Worship me as separate from you and outside you and the tragic and horrible farce of history will continue; the forests will be destroyed and all the birds and animals will die and the entire world will become an external image of the inner poverty and desolation of your vision of yourself.

Know me as your deepest secret and innermost heart, know my power as your power, my love as your love, and you will come into the splendour of direct vision, which I, as Jesus on the Earth, gave everything to try to give to you. And with that vision to inspire you, you will enter the whirlwind of my revolution of glory: you will become humble revolutionaries of glory, and the abundance of divine life that will flow to you from me will release you from all structures that contain you and free you from all social, sexual, political, and religious prisons. You will work with my passion that is your passion, my power that is your innermost power, in the centre of the world, and spread the flames of my truth and justice everywhere.

Each of you will know yourselves in me and like me, a child of the Father-Mother, directly fed with wisdom and love from the Source. Each of you will become the hands and feet and mouth - the body - of love itself and work and act with the tireless stamina of love to transform every facet of the injustice of the world into the compassion and justice of God's Kingdom.

And the reign of the evil one, who has reigned because of your delight in limitation, your embrace of failure, and of the small powers of reason, and your refusal of the great kingdom of the soul, shall be over forever; the great secret of the divinity of every human being and of the
external sacredness of every human soul and of the right of each being to honour and justice and respect in the name of God's love will flame out. Then the whole of life shall be brought into harmony wth this my voice and my love, and the new Jerusalem will descend in a fire of divine compassion from heaven on earth, and earth itself become the heaven it has always been in the heart of my Father-Mother.

For out of the sacred act of your recognition of yourselves as me and of me as yourselves will arise a great cry - a cry for justice - for an end to the psychic degradation of billions, the destruction of nature through greed, the domination of millions of seekers by false masters and mystic and religious systems drunk on body hatred, power and evasion. This cry will have great agony in it, an agony of pain and rage at all the ways in which you have been enslaved and allowed yourselves to be enslaved - but it will also be a cry of light, a cry of resurrection on behalf of every being, a cry of rebirth that will echo around the world and shake the pillars of all the false temples of worldly power and bring them all down.

All the forces of evil and limitation will try everything to prevent this cry from being born in its ful outrage and passion, for when it is born it will be a sign that the Christ is being born in humanity. And when I am born in humanity, all the structures of all the forms of political and religious authority will be changed forever to reflect the boundless glory and equality and justice and honour of the love of the Father-Mother, and to bring humanity at last into divine harmony with the earth and heaven.

This birth of me in you and you in me is the birth that the whole of history has been groaning for: to make it possible is the reason I loved and suffered on earth as Jesus - to birth myself and help all others birth themselves. Hunger to be born now! Hunger and strive with all your powers to realize and spread the power, humility, and ecstasy of this birth!

All those who claim that I am calling you to a "rapture" beyond this world and time and space are lying; I am calling you to enter time and body with divine love and knowledge and to enact the laws of God on earth so as to transform this earth and all aspects of human life. I am not calling you to an escape from the world, however glorious, but to an embrace of it, in the spirit of God, to a dying into life to become one with the life of life and so be humble and powerful enough to flood all things with the glory of love. One with me and the source of love, you will work with my power and my love to realize my great dream to bing all of creation - every human being and fern and dolphin and stone - into the glory of the divine, to take back all things into the all, transfigured by love and justice. This is the great dream of the Christ, the great plan, the deepest meaning of my Second Coming, and you are called upon to realize it with and in me - now, before it is too late - and with your whole heart and mind and body and soul gathered up and blazing in one flame of love.

I am the furnace of love you must burn away in and become one with; I am the passion that you must let kill and rebirth you; I am the Child waiting to be born when your feminine and masculine powers fuse in the core of your heart and love is born forever, radiant and invincible in you and as you. Every atom of the universe and every being is in me and I am in them, and all things are being drawn to me and in me up to the One in glory. This is the truth of all things and the hope and the beauty and the glory without end. Believe me, trust me, love me, enter me and discover yourself and act as me-in-you to transform all the conditions of the world into the Kingdom. As one worlds ends, be the beginning in me of the new world.

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I wish to give myself to the Second Coming, that is why I am a member of NCN; and I believe it is what we are ultimately all doing here.
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