|6 Nov 2002 @ 11:57, by sharie|
What in your life makes you feel sad?
What sadness have you been carrying around a long time?
A couple months ago, I woke up from an intense dream that stuck with me for weeks and weeks.
It just wouldn't go away.
I got the feeling that maybe there was something I was supposed to understand from it, and so I tuned myself into the feeling of the dream to see what it was trying to say to me.
It dealt with a period of my life almost 25 years ago that had always been a mystery to me. I was never able to make sense of events that had occurred.
As I *felt* and embraced what this dream was communicating to me, I was struck by a shocking insight.
That time in my life had been immediately following a serious car accident that I was in. I was the passenger, and knocked unconscious on impact. The two cars were both totaled.
I was taken to the hospital for an x-ray, and then told I had a concussion. I didn't know what that meant at the time, but as I look back on the accident and how mangled the metal was, and that I'd hit my head on impact, I realize the injury that the soft tissue of my brain must've sustained. I realized I was brain damaged by the accident. It wasn't permanent but it was about six months before I began to feel like myself again.
Meanwhile the upheaval in my life was catastrophic and heartbreaking.
And it was *always* a mystery to me the turn of events that occurred... until I had this dream that made me look closely at when it all started.
There wasn't anyone to care for me or help me, or even explain to me what was going on.
I was just brain damaged and hadn't a clue. I didn't even understand that I was brain damaged.
It is such a relief to finally understand that pivotal moment of my life, and to understand why my life took such a drastically course than the one I'd been on.
It had always been the saddest part of my life, and now to understand it was all because of a car accident... I feel myself changing mentally... and emotionally.
All because of a dream.