Western Banana Splits 14 comments

20 Jan 2004 @ 08:10, by Julie Solheim-Roe I was thinking about a pretty Deep Philosophical Conundrum last night ----- that perhaps this new age idea and politically correct Californian psychology that implied each individual is choosing something, say a life pattern, or drama... like me with the many levels of feeling like a victim, estranged, misunderstood, scapegoat... this base level shadow side of a multi-faceted 'story'.... well, the actual idea of 'changing my mind' ... on a soul level... is another way of shaming? That 'Oh boy,, I can't get this life lesson right', feeling is still feeling alone, isn't it? I keep going back to this place of desperation and despair from the patterns that spiral into my own lunacy..... The only way to shift patterns, perhaps, is not to even think about it. To let life's dramas and dance's play out... until we naturally and organically tire of them or develop new approaches, without a forced idea of 'I have to let this go, or I am mis-creating my life'...... To understand the levels that lead to unconscious patterning is inherent in the western psyche... that is shining the light of understanding upon them.... but it's the very 'split' western mind that thinks 'i have to get this right' .... to accept responsibility as a separate being making wholly incomplete decisions, is often actually part of the western dis-ease itself. We are not separate. We have lost true commune-ity. With ourselves and with the cosmos... we are TOO individuated. And so the western psychological and metaphysical idea that it's all down to our individual SELF, that we need to be the one to change it, that we are THE director, producer and actor in our own 'story'... well, that idea is again not taking account for the energetic dance, the wave vs. particle theory of life. Like they say that String Theory is philosophy and not really science, because at this point, they will never know if the strings are the surfaces of 'something' coming in from another dimension. The influences on a galactic and universal level are staggering. Each "I" is a centre, but the whole fucking whirling whilrds are full of centres. Are we insane and egotistical enough to think WE have THE power, seperate from what else is happening? No, the true 'master' is one who is in UNISON with all the other events that are happening AT ONCE. And time the greatest trickster is telling us that this story can be retold. Well, yes. And, no. I guess that's what I am saying. The dance is beyond the human linear ideas. Until we learn to think, feel, experience with all the dimensions and worlds, the idea of creating a new reality pragmatically, is still a selfish western notion. (I read something last year about this book Return of the Dark/Light Mother or New Age Armageddon? Towards a Feminist Vision of the Future by Monica Sjoo.. and how she explores these issues of individuality vs. community as being new age, western, patriarchal denial.... have to say, I agree!)

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20 Jan 2004 @ 12:48 by sharie : wow, thanks for sharing such honesty
I don't experience what you described, Julie, but there have been times in my life where I've caught glimpses of feeling like I was on the receiving end of chaos.

In one vivid moment, my life was looking...

incredible...

the exaggerated drama and unbelievable coincidences...

I asked a friend what he thought of the circumstances, and he said, "it's ironic."

"What's that mean?" I asked.

I had vague notions, but I wanted to know exactly what "ironic" meant. He said he didn't know, so I grabbed a dictionary.

Several definitions, but one stood out...

it referred to a situation in a drama where the *audience* could see the whole story, the coincidences and circumstances...

but the characters - because of their limited perspective and frame of reference - were caught up in their blindness to the truth of what was happening, so they were making really stupid choices.

When I read that definition, it became crystal clear to me, "I'm getting off the stage, and getting in the audience."

In my mind, I could see myself literally removing myself from the drama, from the stage of life that I was experiencing, in order to take a position in the audience so I could see *what* was going on.

I had no desire to be in the drama...

I wanted to see the truth of my life.

So I took a seat and just watched... and boy, did I begin to see it all unfold.

I could see who was creating the drama and why.

It was a sad story, and one I removed myself from.

I didn't want to participate in her delusion...

a woman I'd known most of my life... and her two sisters...

It worked for me to do that, and if I ever need to again, I know I can.

But I avoid situations and circumstances that are not in harmony with who I am and what I want to experience, so that has opened up my life to such a wonderful way of living.

You *can* create and experience anything you want, Julie.

You choose.

I wish everyone could be relieved from the confusion you speak of.

I know it's possible because I am free of it.

And I won't let anyone else drag me into their hellhole.

That's why I've been outcast from some social circles here at ncn.

I just have no desire to participate in it.

Wishing you well Julie,
with love,
Sharie  

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